>So you're an idol. I know its still hard for you to
>comprehend.
> Feels weird, doesn't it?
>
>
More than just a little. I still have a hard time seeing myself in that role.
I just sorta do what I do; I'm doing what I was doing 10 years ago, even
longer, just writing the kinds of stories I like. Same person, different
context.

But I constantly doubt...I doubt if the show is good enough, if the work is
good enough, if we did it right...I wonder if the show is getting enough
attention, so I go out to try and get it, but then when it comes, I worry
about the cult of personality...and then I worry that I'm worrying needlessly
because one thing that typifies B5 fans is that the don't seem to fall for the
cult of personality BS... and then I watch something by Serling and I feel
like a total fraud...and then I have to face the blank page and worry that
whatever the heck it was I did last time, I won't be able to do it again....

I know, I know...thorazine, and lots of it....


jms